Pool Party

We are bringing you a series of ‘petite body blogs’ by a charismatic, authentic and hilariously funny Whitsundays body confident Mum of 2, budding trophy wife and lingerie lover, Wanita from Moments of Salt.

 

Ed Sherman song

I don’t care

This song speaks volumes of truths for us like it’s killing us softly!

 

The song lyrics:

 

Nobody's even looking me in my eyes

Don't think I fit in at this party

I'm crippled with anxiety

Who wants to fit in anyway?

 

Today’s double pool party invite at the town pool is complex. So complex.

 

Granted I don’t want to talk small talk with these people, not for any other reason than I’m not interested in shallow meaningless conversation, we’re not friends and nor do I want to be.

 

My girlfriend doesn’t want to go as the community has not been very kind to her and she does not want to put herself in a position where she feels like a zoo animal.

 

However, she also wants to show a united front and that she is not intimidated. She wants to support me and show she is fully invested in me and the boys. That we are a real family.

 

I have anxiety. I’ve not had anxiety for 18 months plus. However, my little man starting prep has renewed this feeling. I’ll admit I’m not a fan of school pick up or drop off. 40 kids and all the parents, most 1st-time prep parents & the demographic of them in this small community. Give me strength. I may have a few preconceived notions about some of them, true. Others I don’t know or have not seen before.

 

In the past, I’ve been ‘that Mum’ for a myriad of reasons. But my appearance gives me some anxiety. And I’d say it’s my assumption of what others will think about my appearance, it’s an unhealthy pattern I know.

 

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What is appropriate to wear to the town pool & a children’s pool party anyway?

So in an effort to be something that is my version of ‘mumsy’ I put on my only conservative swimsuit. It’s a high cut Adidas one piece. Still turns heads.

There is nothing that I could wear that wouldn’t be a topic of conversation. I’m never going to win in this situation.


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